Tired.

D'you know the feeling after you've carried three bags full of weights on both arms for the whole day? That is how it feels at the moment. I don't really know why... perhaps it is because I was able to build muscles carrying Baby, doing the laundry, carrying pails full of water, and typing at least five hours a day.

Update about Marky: After a week of breastfeeding him, Daddy's told me to give up. It's no use; he's not getting enough milk, and my nipples were already cracked and bleeding. Add to that the fact that I'm going back to office soon, so it's either I pump or we'd just have him succumb to bottle feeding. We chose the latter, because when I tried to pump, both breasts, the produce won't even exceed 2 ounces. Pity, pity. Oh yeah, breastfeeding is painful, but I do enjoy having Baby in my arms, pressed against my chest... so what I do now, whenever he feeds on the bottle, I make sure I'm hugging him as well....

Speaking about hugs, Marky also seems to be restless during evenings... that is, until his Mommy and Daddy hug him. After that, unless his diaper's soiled or he's hungry, he'll most likely go to sleep... soundly. It's so lovely looking at him sleeping so soundly sandwiched in between the two of us. He looks so secure, so comfortable, so peaceful.......

And yes, he's getting rounder, healthier... his kicks are getting stronger, as well as his cries... he now employs a few means of conversation with us ("uh, uh... eh..."), and we love him even more. =)

Tomorrow, I'm going back to my regular work at the office. It won't take that much time, but I'd sure miss the early morning feedings and diaper changings. And yes, in the afternoons, I'll still be doing web copywriting. So....

Sighs.

But... we need to do it. We need to earn enough for his needs. Today, his diapers have run out, and his milk supply will soon be short, so while I'm struggling to earn online so that we'll have early money by this week, Daddy is looking for ways to get Marky's new supply of diapers and milk. Where is he going to get the money to buy?....

Today, his cousin, Gabriel, is christened. They're asking us when Marky will be. I and Daddy are deciding among two dates: December 9 (coinciding with Daddy's 29th birthday) or July 15 next year (Marky's 1st birthday). Of course, it'll be largely dependent on the funds we have at hand, since both Daddy and I would want Marky's first celebration to be grand.

So, help us God.