The Moment I've Been Waiting For

Got into a spat with Daddy's elder bro last night. He was drunk; I was tired and spending quality time with my little boy. Playing with Marky is just as tiring, but it's one of my means to relax....

And then, he asked these crazy questions. I don't wanna answer. I never wanted to deal with stupid stuff like this.

He insisted I answer. I said I don't talk to people who were not my level. It got his ire. It worked... it burst his bubble.

This guy always seemed like the perfect epitome of the bum... he's been given opportunities, but he neither excelled nor persevered to excel in any of them. I've always been raising this point to Daddy, with care, for he always kept his ears shut whenever I open the subject... which I understand, because he loves his brother... but....

But my concern really is that this guy is growing to be a sort of jinx to all the people who help him, who would support him in his endeavors. The perfect example is his girlfriend. She's a pretty-enough girl, with amazing computer skills and knowledge and the knack for relating to people. I had wanted to recommend her to jobs, but I didn't, because I know her earnings would only go to "that" person....

And, guess what? "This" person applied and put me in his character references! Amazing! As if I didn't know how he worked, how he sabotaged his every output, and how he flunked in every assignment he is given!

Now, he's been given another opportunity to prove himself. My only wish is that he doesn't flunk this one, like he did in his other gigs....

Daddy has threatened to leave me because of that one simple sentence I said to his bro. I'm not gonna force him not to. He has to choose if he will go with his ancestral family or with me and Marky. But, 'guess what? I'm thankful this has happened. Because it kind of harked me back to my senses... that I'm now grown up, a mom, a partner, and I should have that sense of responsibility already....

Tiredness from work is no longer an excuse. As I've put it in the past, I chose to live this life. And Maryan is known for always making her decisions right. So be it.

Now, I'm determined. Whether Daddy leaves or stays, I will be able to raise Marky. On my own. Without the help of either family. And I will make sure, as I always did, that both will be proud of me and my son in the end.

Need to go back to God. Soon.

God speed....