It was performance night last night. :o I'm super aminado that there were parts, just the teensiest parts, where I wasn't able to give my bestest best. :o But it was amazing how the people rushed on to me after the show, congratulating me for a job well done, telling me how very natural my acting was, just how acting seems like just a piece of cake to me now. Actually, acting IS never something that's easy for me to do, even if I've been into training ever since I started schooling as a kid. It's even harder right now because it's been so long since I last acted on stage... I guess the last time was last year, and that wasnt even on stage. But then again, what I did last night was just a concession to the fact that that's just not me pulling the act, it's God. Because, if I do it on my own, gosh, what a mess it's gonna be!
I'm glad then because three very special groups of people were there to watch me and the rest of the cast of Xhibit do our thing. :) They are as follows:
* Fellow Corinthians - it's sad how I abandoned them for the weeks that I've been spending for practices on Xhibit. I remember how John, Hannah, Eds, Romer, Adel... who else... have been nagging me to at least lead the teaching of songs for the group every Sunday. Now, I'll be able to do that again. :) But maybe, not tomorrow. Hehe. For the reason, I'll write about that later.
* World Youth Day Mates - the gang was almost complete... I wasn't able to see Mommy Angel, Rosel, Shen, Kuya Noel, Ate Lany, Kuya Mike, and Ate Abby. Hehe... but I was surprised to see Daddy JP and Ring. How I missed them! All the bonding, the laughter, the tears, the prayers, the experiences we shared during our almost a month of stay in Australia last July. Glad to know we're all still on track to becoming beacons of light for the world. Chorva lang! :p
* My Family - Ate Maye said, "hagalpak sa tawa mga magulang mo sa pinaggagagawa mo." Hahaha. Of course, hindi lang ako, Aldrin, the one who played Richie, was funnier than me because his role is actually to be the clown of the cast. But anyway, it was a blessing having them around to watch the play. It was nakakahiya pa nga, because I don't have money then and I wasn't able to treat them after the play as I've promised. So much for all the show of extravagance.
And yes, he was there. :)
On the eve of the play, he already told me that he might not be able to come because his budget will no longer suffice if he did. I was sad, as in, very sad, but of course, what could I do? All I could do was to pay sympathy and understand him. But I've been really hoping that he could come, not just because I want him to see our show but because I want him to see just what I've been working on these past few weeks.
You see, he's been kinda worried about me attending the rehearsals back then because almost every time we talked then, I'd always have a cough or colds. They seem so severe because I'd even have the flu and I've been vomiting blood already, so he was pleading if I could just give up performing in the play because it's affecting my health. I understand him, but of course, I can't. It's what I want to do. It's my only really sincere, hard-worked offering for Jesus this year, so my side that tells me I want fulfillment urges strongly that I shouldn't give up this stint. Sure, I won't earn any dough from here, but at least, I would be able to make people and God happy, and I would be able to make myself happy as well.
And then, yes, right after the play, as I was lost in my collection of borrowed stuff which I used as props, two special friends approached me, and....
"Uy, nakita ko."
"Ang alin?"
"Siya."
"Sinong..."
"Eh sino pa nga ba, 'di ba?"
"TALAGA??? NASA'N SIYA???"
I knew it. I just knew it.
He's always there for me even when I don't tell him to be so.
What more when I ask for it?
AWW.
Thank God I'm loved by someone I love back. :)
