Sunday, December 12, 2010

Prospects for 2011`

from: http://www.moonslipper.com/chinese.html

Note: Mommy and Baby are tigers... Daddy's a rooster. =)

The Tiger

Magnetic, passionate and grand! When the Tiger does anything, it’s noticed! Indecisiveness and stubbornness can mar the sparkle of the Tiger personality. On the one hand generous, on the other hand a little mean, it’s sometimes hard to know where one stands with the Tiger. Flexible, honest and truly entertaining, one has a friend for life with a Tiger.

Forecast for 2011 Most Tigers will be feeling quite pleased and energized at the end of their own year in 2010. The Year of the Rabbit will be another positive year for them. Romantic matters are particularly to the forefront, with many born under this sign deciding to get married or to take the relationship to the next level. Single Tigers will have many chances to meet a partner with June to September particularly well aspected. If they have faced recent personal trials and tribulations, 2011 will prove to be a much brighter year. Financially, the Tiger will most likely see an increase in income, either due to a pay rise or an unexpected windfall. With careful planning and budgeting, they can enjoy this monetary increase whilst easing financial burdens. Hobbies and outdoor pursuits will also interest the Tiger this year and will provide relaxation and a social setting, both of which will suit him just fine. Travel and spending holidays with friends will be a focus during late spring and also August and September. If there is a dream location he’s always wanted to visit, this is the perfect year to do so! A house purchase or change of home could very well feature on the cards also. This will be an exciting rather than overly stressful development and Tigers should thrive in their new environment.

The Rooster

The Rooster is always popular, extravagant and creative. They can be brutally honest and generally like being showered with attention. They are wonderfully loyal friends and also give advice freely – whether they are asked for it or not! Family means the world to the Rooster and they are one of the most loyal signs in the Chinese zodiac.

Forecast for 2011 The Year of the Rabbit will be a much quieter year than 2010 for the Rooster. However, the Rooster will have to curb his natural exuberance and enthusiasm just a bit in 2011 and practice some patience and common sense. On the work front, it will be vital for the Rooster to work closely with his colleagues and practice his networking skills. This will stand to him during the months of March, April, November and December when unexpected developments happen . All the work he does now on the career front will pay dividends in 2012, the Chinese Year of the Dragon. The Rooster should also consider any opportunities he may have to study or for training. This would go extremely well for him and again benefit him greatly later on in the year. On the social and romantic side of life, this will be a much more settled and quiet year, which will be to many a Rooster’s liking. March, July and August look to be the most active on the social scene. A word of warning though – the Rooster must take care to temper his words with friends and not be too harsh. A quarrel or end of a close relationship could result. Financially, the Rooster may have a few home-related expenses this year with repairs, decorating and renovations. It would be wise to manage any project sensibly and shop around for the best deal; Chinese Rabbit years can be expensive for all signs. On the whole, 2011 looks like being a pleasurable and encouraging year for all Roosters.

Interesting Rooster Facts:
Zodiac Stone: Citrine
Special Flower: Aster
Best Hours: 5-7 pm
Season: Autumn
Horoscope Colors: Orange, Green

Friday, December 3, 2010

On My Baby Naknak's 4th Month

This post is somewhat belated already... It's actually been quite some time since I last blogged... been catching up on stuff that I have to do, have to finish... mostly work stuff... so that's it.

So, how's Marky lately? Well, I think the highlight of this month was when his Daddy got chicken pox, and Marky had to sleep at his Lola's. I really missed him! It took a week before Daddy finally recuperated, and while he's not, we did get to sleep soundly (finally!) during the evenings, but it's not restful sleep because we're worrying about our son who's not with us....

Oh yes, we do trust that his Lola also know what's best for her grandson. But then, his Lola has many children, and we really couldn't discount the fact that there'll be times when Marky would not be taken care of as he should. True enough, when he's back to us, he's got these mosquito bites all over his face and his body, and he's got cough and colds that would often wake him up during the night and send him crying. Neighbors have been commenting, "Ay, 'di inaalagaan ng Nanay...." It was a tough realization. Whatever happens to your son, whether it's your doing or not, it would still boil down to the parents.

Anyway, so how's Marky now? Oh, he's grown big now, very big, very round, very chubby, and very kulit! He wants play times more than ever now. And he loves it when he's made to tumble, fly, whatever. And sometimes, he even shoos his Mommy away when she hugs him at night! But after a while, he'll cry, and he'll look for his Mommy and Daddy's hug once more....

He now knows when the person carrying him is sitting down or resting, and he dislikes that! He would do what I call, "Alive, alive," and would really summon the person to stand up....

He now wakes up at 7 or 8 am everyday. Yes, let me emphasize that, EVERYDAY! Sleepy or not, he has too... that's the time when his body is, sort of, summoned to defecate. It's like a system already. So after he dirties his nappy, and gets his Mommy to clean it, he gets wide awake, and Mommy has no choice but to play with him! I take in a cup of coffee first, wash Marky's baby bottles, and then, dress Marky up. Then, I'll get his cloth nappy, and out we go to wherever Mommy's feet would go! Usually, when we go back, Marky has fallen back asleep, and it's already 9am. So, what does that mean? Time for Mommy to prepare for work!

The same goes for weekends. But today, when Marky's back to sleep on our bed-bed, I washed the dishes and then, some of our clothes in the sink. Afterwards, I went back beside Marky, but I didn't fall asleep at first. I just stared at my cute, handsome sleeping baby, wrapped in my arms, with a sweet smile spreading across his face sans his closed eyes......

I just felt someone tap me on the thigh. It's Daddy. He says it's time for lunch. Gosh, I've fallen asleep, indeed. I rise up to get mine. But when I looked back inside the room, Marky's eyes were already wide open, like he was wondering why he's there. Then, his head moved, his eyes, too, and his eyes got fixed on the door - there's Mommy, staring at him! He laughed, and motioned for Mommy to (pretty please) carry him.....

Baby, Mommy and Daddy love you. We'll do all we can to keep you happy, safe, and healthy. 'Hope you'll be a very good boy when you grow up.....

God speed.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Surveys... Surveys.... =p

1. Lots of pillows or just one? Describe your pre-sleeping rituals.
Hmm... I used to have lots. But over time, I found that I can actually sleep even without a pillow on my head. I can actually sleep wherever, whenever if I feel like it!

2. What kind of books do you read?
*Whichever catches my fancy. But I love children's books best, as well as self-help books.

3. What are your neighbors like?
*The one in front of us were somewhat nice, until some of them takes booze. The one on our side, well, we actually didn't realize that they're there, until their baby cried....

4. What's really creepy to you?
*Fried chicken that's not been fully cooked (I've been served this once in our office cafeteria; it still had blood on the points where the meat meets with the bone... it conjured images of me becoming vampire and wiping away drops of blood from my lips. Gross.)

5. What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
*Does coffee count? =) Oh, and yes, I would love to have ice cream! (Hated it when I was pregnant, but when I'm not, it's my fave comfort food)

6. Do you prefer your junk food sweet, salty or savory?
*Depends on my mood, but usually, I prefer it salty.

7. What was the last expensive thing you bought?
* Hmm... a cellphone? (Crazy, it was just a 3310 for P600, but other than that, I bought shoes for P250, and that's not even half as expensive)

8. What is your greatest fear?
* Abandonment.

9. Do you get cravings? If so, what do you crave?
*Yes. Usually coffee, pancit canton, adobo, and the ref cake I would always be served as dessert in our cafeteria... yum!

10. What do you do to change your mood?
*Divert attention first to a more leisurely activity such as blogging or playing Plants vs. Zombies, then work again. =)

11. What was the last meal you ate that you loved?
*Daddy's chicken adobo! =p

12. Do you want to learn another language? If so, why?
*I would want to master my Italian. Wala lang, para magamit ang napag-aralan. I actually already forgot most of it.

13. What's something that you'd like to say to someone right now?
*Hmm... to my family: I wish you could all see Baby Marky soon. I miss y'all! Don't worry, I'm perfectly fine. Hope you all are, too.

14. What are you looking forward to?
*Marky's christening, Daddy's birthday, and Christmas!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Bathing Baby Blues (BBBs)

Not that they're actually blues... actually, bathing Marky is lots of fun! =) I really wonder why he always cries whenever it's his daddy who bathes him... after all, his daddy admitted one time that he does always make Marky cry before he bathes him so that he's sure the little boy's awake. Hehehe... you see, it's funny - Marky always falls asleep whenever we want to bathe him na... so, especially when we have to go na, we really make all sorts of surprising noises to make sure he's awake. =) And yeah, sometimes, the easiest way would really be to make him cry....

Anyway, a while ago, it's the first time I took him to bath on a larger wash basin. :p Before kasi, it was a small basin, but since he's growing so fast and so fat now, he no longer fits in it... so we always let him lie down on the lampin-covered sink, soap him, and then, just pour the water over him from the basin. But now, it's the larger basin... and I can tell he's just as excited as I am to take a dip in it. It was a quandary - but the fun kind. He keeps on sliding and kicking on the water. He only cried when I started soaping his face. And I almost cried 'cause he's so likot! As in....

And then, after he took a bath, I put oil on him, powdered him, clothed him, slapped on fresh diaper on his puwet puwet... stuff like that. Then, I put him on his makeshift bed and I said, "Baby, behave muna ikaw, ha... Mommy has to wash your dirty stuff." It was a ton of clothes and cloth diapers from Monday up to this day. His Daddy wasn't able to wash them all because he's always in a hurry as he has to go to work after fixing Marky. So... going back... I kept making daldal while I was washing the clothes and nappies, and there he was, just looking and listening to me, seemingly in awe... and yes, he's just very, very behaved.

And then, I soaked the clothes in Downy, prepared my meal and Marky's milk-milk, and I sat beside him. One hand was feeding Marky, holding the milk bottle, and the other hand was holding the spoon, which I used to eat of course. So, it's like we had lunch together....

Next thing, I went back to rinse the clothes and hang them. I once again summoned my baby to behave. And yes, he did behave. So, after about 20 minutes of rinsing and hanging clothes, I rewarded Marky with a much deserved hug, kiss, and play. =)

Ah... the simple pleasures of being a Mommy. :p

Anyway, last Sunday, we went out on our first threesome date ever... I, the Daddy, and the Baby. We just went to Almar to shop for baby stuff and eat. Funny thing was, it was Halloween then, so a lot of people around were in costumes. He basically just stared in awe at all of them. =)

Tomorrow, it's another Sunday! Would it be date day again? Well, it depends on the Daddy.... =)

Right now, I'm planning to try my best to earn as much as I could so that Baby's christening would push through on December as planned. =) Actually, I can do it... but yeah, I need to do more online writing work along with my TV stint so I could earn enough.

God speed....

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Lord, please help me to be better... everyday....

This is my prayer... everyday. =) I know I have lots of catching up to do at work, specifically when it comes to the brand of writing they have at the Kapatid Network. Yeah, they really have their own brand of writing, and I have mine as one who came from two government networks... I was lucky to have been considered eligible to be a part of them, but I understand that it doesn't end there. I have to be able to ALWAYS fulfill... deliver... what is standard, and be better every time.

Relaunched some new programs this week. Sacrificed two days of my web copywriting for this. 0_o Now I've got lots of catching up to do. Won't expect a fat salary tuloy on the 30th. Sayang. But anyway, I hope it will all be worth it.

AKSYON PRIMETIME on weekdays, 6 to 6:30pm (before Willing Willie), only here on TV5! We've got there Paolo Bediones, Cheryl Cosim, Erwin Tulfo, and Paloma. And yes, please don't forget the other news programs. There's Sapul sa Singko during the early weekday mornings, Aksyon Journalismo during the late weekday evenings, and Aksyon sa Sabado during Saturdays. The last one has my friend, Maricel Halili, as one of the anchors. =) I'm so proud to say this because she deserves it. I once lobbied for her to become our program's anchor when we were still with the government sequestered network, but they won't because they said they want a more "credible," more "popular" front liner. Biases aside... but look who's credible now. Look who's popular now. And she's just a simple MalacaƱang reporter who just needs some acknowledgment and appreciation of the things that she can do.

Good luck, Mommy Mace! I'm sure you can do it! She's got the looks, the brain, the appeal, and the will for it. God bless you!

Meanwhile, for me and for the Daddy, I think it's still a long, long way to go. But I hope we'll get to where we should be soon.

Tomorrow is date day for us. =) Our first ever with the Baby. =) I'm excited na....

God speed.....

Saturday, October 16, 2010

On My Baby Naknak's 3rd Month =)

Marky's now three months old, circa yesterday. =) So, how's he now? Here's an update....

>> He's now REALLY noisier. As in. He makes "daldal" with everybody now, whether it's Mommy, Daddy, or his Titos, Titas, and Lola. He tries to mimic the sounds he hear (I even heard him once saying "Okay, okay," and "Opo, opo."). I'm not sure, though, if these already mean anything, but with his actions, I can tell that he sort of wants to say something but he just, well, makes up any sound he can do so that we'll know he needs something. And whenever his Mommy and his Daddy sings, he sort of sings along, too. He says, "Ah, aah... aaaaaaaaaaahhhhh" whenever we sing. =) Hahaha. It's really very funny.

>> He's grown to be REALLY, REALLY playful now, to the point that at times, we just couldn't catch up. He's got an awful lot of energy, and he always wants play, play, play!!! While he's playing or in the mood to play, you can't stop him even if it's for milk. You have to wait for him to get tired. And once he's tired (it usually takes about three hours of play now before he gets tired. Sheesh), he'll cry for someone to give him milk or to carry him, and then, he falls asleep.

>> He loves music and dance. He loves listening to music, and he loves seeing people dance. So, if you really want to make him smile, you gotta do those crazy moves in front of him. He'll laugh even. Never mind if we do look funny and crazy. Those little smiles and laughter would definitely be enough for a compensation.

>> Aside from milk, he also sips on bananas and mashed potatoes now. But that's just because we want to see if he can now take on a bit of solid food, since he's now notoriously chewing on his bottle's nipple. But of course, he can't eat the whole thing just yet. He just sips and chews on some, then Mommy eats the rest.

>> His neck and back are now more stable, and he no longer wants "baby carry" now. He wants to be carried with an upright position, or on his belly, so he could "fly fly."

Oh yes, that's Marky now. And I and Daddy really need to take vitamin supplements now to keep up to his energy. Hehe. Soon, we'll be making "lakwatsa" with him as well. =)

God, please continue to be with him. And thank You for everything. =)

Thank You, Pond's! (lol)


Pond's skincare products are really a godsend. =) I first got hold of one during a tour at SM Fairview... there's some booth there where the staff's giving away free sachets of their Pinkish White face cream... Mom and I got three each... and when I tried it, I ended up asking for Mom to give me her three sachets, too. =) They really work, and the great thing about them is that they're, so far, the most inexpensive of all the reliable skin care brands in the market these days (as per my observation). Soon, I discovered the lotion variant, and it works just as great, and it is friendly for those who have dry or combination dry and oily skin. =)

Lately though, Pond's Pinkish White Lotion got sold out in our local drugstore. So, the saleslady just gave me the Spotless White variant. I had doubts, but I tried it anyway since my skin's already badly in need of skincare. =p During the first few days, I sort of got disappointed because I thought it just made my face oilier. But soon after, I really noticed a change and a drastic improvement in my skin. It really clears out dark spots, and it made my skin a lot lighter because of that. I like that it's actually also a moisturizer and a sunblock in one. So now, my guiding principle for buying my next Pond's product is, whichever will fit my budget! =) Because, anyway, whatever it is, I now trust that it's going to work. =)

There's a Pond's product for everybody. Yes, even for the guys, although it's not really indicated (I just said so because I once had guy classmates and officemates who are fond of using Pond's facial wash). =) If you want to know what's yours, you can check out this site. My result? Yep, the products that I am already using. =)

Thank you, Pond's! =)

Sunday, October 10, 2010

By the Way....

UPDATES:

I just realized that it's been quite some time since I last logged in. =) Anyway, there've been developments, starting from my career woes up to how Baby Marky's now doing. Here's a scoop:

>> Mommy's got a better job right now. =) It's more lucrative, it's my passion... so it's definitely what I longed to be in. But the work demands are a bit taxing at times.
>> Daddy decides to make Sundays official family days. This just in... glad he realized we need some rest and "lakwatsa" time, too.
>> By the way, Daddy's contract's renewed, and his status at work is better than ever before. Aside from being a Writer, he gets to operate the chargen now, too (and hopefully, he gets his TF for this extra job). And just today, we saw an ad in a newspaper that a private school that's just near our home is looking for AP teachers for high school. Perfect timing! We had his resh submitted and hopefully, the response will be favorable.
>> Marky's now more active than ever! 0_o He cherishes his play times more than ever, and sometimes, he could forego his milk-milk for "cheesemax" with Mommy or "kulitan" with Daddy. He loves to "fly," and he's so, so fond of watching people sing or dance. And then, once he's tired, it just takes three steps to make him relax: 1.) Turn on the fan-fan, 2.) Carry him (No "baby-carry," please. He wants an upright position now whenever he wants carry.), and 3.) Make him latch on his milk-milk. Soon, he'll fall into a deep sleep, with smiles attached.

Looking forward to a blessed week ahead.

God speed. =)

Marky's Personality (Through his star sign)

Magiging super maka-Mommy at maka-family pala siya. 0_o I wish we could pave the way for him to have a better future and be a better individual. =)

In other words...

Marky is...

>> Iyakin
>> Introvert
>> Mapagmahal sa family
>> Mapagtanim
>> Maalaga
>> Kailangan ng constant confidence booster from people close to him.

This helps, indeed. =) Thanks for whoever's behind this. =)


Marky as a Baby
As a Water sign, the Cancer baby is likely to be more emotional than most. In a word: tears! This baby will probably cry a fair bit, so holding and touching are of paramount importance -- really anything to achieve comfort. Along these lines, this is a baby who needs to feel secure and will easily pick up any bad vibes in the household. Therefore, arguing in the presence of this child should be kept to a minimum. Family is very important to the Cancer baby, as is nurturing. As Cancer is the sign of the Mother, the elements of nurturing, family, and mood swings (think sensitivity and emotions) are highlighted. Also, because Cancer is the sign of Memory, the Cancer baby will retain memories from the past, both good and bad. This is a child who could get lost in the supermarket for two minutes and forever remember it as a sign of rejection from the mother! For this reason and others, this tot needs to be made to feel secure, especially within the family unit (family will always be more important to the Cancer baby than friends). The somewhat reticent Cancer baby will nonetheless surprise Mom and Dad by being fussy about food, so be sure to please that palate! To sum up, the Cancer baby is familial, must feel protected, and with any kind of luck, will learn to swim like a fish!


Marky as a Child
The Cancer child is the homebody of the Zodiac, a shy and sensitive sort who would rather play in their room than face the brave new world. Emotional as well, this child will cry easily if things aren't going their way, or if there is some upset going on in the family. A peaceful place is what this babe craves! Staying close to home, the Cancer child can be expected to tug on Mom's apron strings regularly. This can be a good thing, though, as this child loves to be helpful. Maternal in nature, the Cancer child is also a good choice to look after the younger kids in the family. These children are natural baby-sitters and can keep the neighborhood kids happy for hours with games and other domestic pursuits. As this child is possessed of an excellent memory, studying and test-taking will come easily. Occasionally moody, it's best to give the Cancer child room when feeling blue. While this child might at times start to feel sorry for themselves and even get lazy, it won't last for long. It's much more fun, after all, to be involved! Most of all, the Cancer child appreciates family, so expect this youngster to revel in family reunions and any and all family adventures.

Marky as a Teen
A Cancer lad is emotional and subject to mood swings. He has a family-oriented persona and caring sensibility. You can count on him to be around for the family barbecues and spirited games of hacky sack and badminton in the back yard. He's bound to be involved in sports like soccer or basketball, drawn to the comaraderie and sense of family within the team. When it comes time for other extra-curricular interests, collecting is what the Crab will do. This boy never throws away a thing! Except maybe a mirror, since he isn't too caught up in checking his looks. He also isn't too quick to let go of his money. The Crab boy is a bit of a miser -- after all those hours of delivering newspapers around the neighborhood, he's not about to spend all his earnings in one place. Since Cancer rules the stomach, chances are he will have a healthy appetite, so make sure the fridge is stocked. He needs to feel good at school - make that everywhere. He'll probably gravitate to a small, liberal arts college where this easy-going guy can find a sense of togetherness away from home. You don't have to worry about him moving to the other side of the globe. With his strong attachment to family, he'll probably stick close to home.

******

By the way, both Mommy and Baby are Tigers. Hehe. =)

Daddy, on the other hand, is a Rooster. =)

Mommy is a Virgo, while Daddy is a Sag. =)

Monday, September 20, 2010

'Twas an evening... I was helping my baby go back to sleep, and Daddy's in the living room with his buds, and I overheard him telling them:

"Asawa ko si Marianne, 'di ba?... Iisa kami...."

Just kinda reminds me that we're family. Oh well, I don't really forget that... it's just that sometimes, I've been taking the idea for granted.

Anyways, this is really just to update everybody. =) My baby's cough and colds episodes have stopped now... now, all we have to do whenever he coughs or sneezes is to carry him so that he'll burp after every feed. =) What we did? Absolutely NOTHING. By nothing, we mean, we didn't take him to the pedia or even made him take some medicine. We simply made sure that his clothes were always clean, dry, and airy, that his surroundings are always clean, and that we put aceite alcamforado, that massage oil, on his back and chest whenever we change his clothes. =) Feeding him milk that's lukewarm, not cold, we found out, also helps. =) And the early morning sunnings help a lot, too. That is why, I promised Baby, as long as I don't have an early morning show, I will be taking him out every morning to sun. =) It has been a source of bonding for us, too, and whenever we'd go back home after our early morning sunning, he will feel more refreshed and sleep more soundly.

Meanwhile... right now, I'm still on to my professional writing rakets and all other what-have-yous. Still no word yet with TV5 as to what will be the definite result of our training, but, as long as the world needs writers, we will have a source of income and we'll be alive. =)

So much for that. I need to face my writing job now.

God speed. =)

Sunday, September 19, 2010

On My Baby Naknak's 2nd Month =)







Note: This was first posted on my Facebook account, via Notes, on September 16, 2010.... =)


2 months na kahapon ang baby naknak ko. =)

A few days before his 2nd month burpday, he got these really scary colds and cough episodes that kind of scared the hell out of me. 0_o He wasn't able to go to the Health Center to get his next booster shot, which is for measles, I think, and I wouldn't want to, even... because the last time he went there for a DPT vaccine, one of the babies weren't able to get his 'cause he's still coughing so badly, so he needs to go have it checked by the pedia. And then, I've read that while colds may be a given, developing a cough could be bad for babies below 3 months, so that is, well, scary.

Fortunately, it's considerably lessened now. =) And he doesn't have to go through a lot of medications and a nebulizer. Just making sure that his back won't stay wet with sweat or pee, and that his shirt will be routinely checked if it needs changing already works. And yes, there's the aceite alcamforado (or alcanforado), or the aceite de manzanilla to thank for. We'd always put some on his back, chest, head, and feet, and it looks like it really warms him up.

And yes, he needs to have some sunning. =) Daddy and I have now taken turns doing it, and sometimes, his lola or his titos and titas would come over to take him out in the mornings when the sun have just come out. =) Not only does he enjoy it a lot, he falls back into a deeper, sounder sleep once he's back. Now, time for a well deserved nap. =)

My baby naknak's noisier now, with his vocabulary now including more variations of "A-coohs" and "Aaahs." He also loves putting his feet up, and he loves it even more when we help him reach these feet with his hands and do the "Ikot ikot" dance. =)

And yeah,we love him more each time.

So much for that. I have to log out now. Got to prepare for work.

One final word....

Remember my blog post when Marky isn't born yet?

Oh well, it aint here. It's in my official blog, the url of which you can find on my profile.

I said there that I, his mommy, and his Daddy love him so much.

Oh yeah, we still do.

Happy burpday, dearest Marky! =)


Friday, September 10, 2010

Updates: A New Job, Baby's Status, and Daddy's Status

God is so good! =)

After some time, when I thought everything's gonna crumble because the deal that I was promised at the company where I'm supposed to go back to just proved itself to be a trap because they wanted me back, this company that I've been dreaming to be part of called. And asked me to report. Now, I'm done with my first week of training with them, and next week will be my second and last. There'll be evals, and hopefully, I'll pass. =)

And then, I'm still doing my home-based online biz. =) It has really helped us a lot, it never failed to. I recommend it to everybody who's passionate about writing, has a PC at home, and would rather have a sideline or would rather work at home. Thank you, Sneakindesign! =)

Daddy... he was given a one month contract... but other talents got three months. Sabotage going on? Oh well. This is all I have to say: I won't recommend people if I know that they won't be able to perform the job well, so if they kick him out, then it just proves once more that they really don't give me much importance.

Baby... he has developed a cough and colds. :o It has sent me freaking out for days now. I want to take him to the pedia. A friend said it might be due to the DPT vaccine he had lately, because this happened to his baby, too. Well, I hope so. When he took that formidable vaccine, it made him feverish for two days. Now....

But, you know what? He's grown more talkative... everyday, before I go to work, he's been telling me stories of "A-cooh, a-cooh," and he's been playing holding feet with his hands. He loves that so much, it always sends him laughing. =) And I grow more and more in love with him every time he does.

Christening's due on December. But we still have to work on the date... and the funds for it. =)

God speed............................................................

Saturday, September 4, 2010

I Miss...

... these people....


1. My baby brother, Toto (he's in Grade 6 now)


2. 4th in line, Alex... (he's currently working as crew at Jollibee)


3. Middle kid, Emmanuel (my artistic TKD champ)


4. And the one next to me, Butchoy (he's got a GF now... after how many years?)




Sighs....

Do you guys know that you're officially uncles now?

I believe they might be mad at me for the moment, but I just hope that they will get to see Marky soon....

Especially Toto, who's yet to see somebody younger than him at home.

God speed.....

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Another Milestone

I'm losing a job... soon.

Seriously.

The Saturday before I finally went back to (my office) work (at NBN), our overall boss called me, my fellow worker, and my direct supervisor, and asked if we could stop by NBN so she could tell us the news. Oh well. Not that I was caught off guard... but it's not that I also expected it to happen... it's just, well... nothing. I didn't feel relief or anything at all. But of course, it worries me to think that I'll be losing more than half of my current income soon....

The reason? Cost-cutting measures. The network lost two major sponsors so they're left cash strapped and without any other choice but to trim down their employees. The funny thing was, many of the people they left were the ones who have skyrocketing salaries, who have records of inefficiency, and who would be retiring soon. Isn't that kind of a foolish decision? But if that's their decision, so be it. I'm just thankful for the following reasons:

1.) Because of NBN, I was able to write news for national TV
2.) I was able to learn how to edit videos
3.) I was able to learn how to lineup stories
4.) I was able to develop my own sense of editorial judgment
5.) I was able to build relations with some veteran newsmen
6.) I was able to make decisions for our program segment and have them followed (such as the graphics, the lineup format, etc.)

I will always be thankful to NBN for the opportunity it has accorded me with... but here is one person I will never forget, of course:


He is Mr. Jun del Rosario, my mentor, the one who became a "Father" icon to me ever since college.

He was my professor in Broadcast Announcing and Performance during my second year in college. Because of his busy schedule, he almost always never made it to school; but we loved his subject course so much, so we made an effort to keep in touch with him (through me?). It felt then that I was his personal secretary, and during those days I resented it, but now, I see that he had just wanted me to learn, and I am so thankful that he allowed that to happen.

And then, after college, he invited me to be part of a program where he was EP at NBN. When things started turning awry, he fought for me even if the bosses wanted me retrenched. He maintained that I was one of the most effective and efficient of his staff, and that I could do anything they wanted me to do. And so, that was how I learned video editing. Now, the only thing I really needed to master in the field of news production was directing and chargen, and I thank Sir Jun for everything.

Now, he will be among the workers who will be relieved from their positions because of the cost-cutting measure. He will no longer be able to fight for me to be retained, and I cannot fight for him as well. But this I have to say:

Once more, THANK YOU!

You know very well why.

There are losses, but there will be many happy returns.

And I'm hoping for bountiful blessings for you and your family.

GOD bless you!

I really dunno how to say everything.

But right now, I feel motivated....

I want the network to regret losing me... losing us.

And yes, I also need to earn for my Baby.

I will make sure I earn more than what I earned when I was with the network.

So, that's how I will start again.

I pray that the opportunity I have been promised and am hoping for will be given to me.

They will not be disappointed... this I guarantee.

So, help me God. =)

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Mommy's Got Really Long Hair (Literally and Figuratively)

My hair's now reaching to my butt, but that's not what I'm going to talk about here. :) You see, when people say, "Uy, ang haba ng hair" here, you know what that means... it's something, uh, flattering. :) Perhaps what happened last night was a testament to that.

So, why am I saying that mahaba ang hair ko? :D Oh well... let me begin this way. Last night was my turn to face Marky's tantrums because it's a weekend and I won't have work at dawn the next day. All I can say is, it was almost a nightmare. He's super wide awake, and I want to sleep already... I give him milk, change his diapers, swaddle him, carry him... and when I stop doing those and just let him be on the bed we made for him, he lets out the most scandalous shriek ever... and yes, he cries. Aside from that, I've been peed on three times, and yes, I know his butt hurts already from diaper rash, so what I did was, I let him be on cloth diapers for as long as he's awake. The result is, I've got a ton of cloth diapers to wash the following day. :o

Anyway, that's still not the story. :) The story's this... when Marky finally decided that he's going to sleep (read: his tummy's full, he smells like a baby once more, his clothes, blanket, and bedsheets have been changed three times due to spilled milk and pee, his butt is now dry and powdered and slapped on with a disposable diaper), I settled on my sleeping position - finally! - still beside him, hugging him and with my face close to him. When I did, he smiled and slept sweetly. Then, I said, "O, Baby, dito naman ako sa isa ko pang baby ha..." (his daddy, who was sleeping beside me). That time, his Daddy already has, for some reason, our entire bedsheet, his blanket and MY blanket wrapped on his body, so what I was planning to do then was to get my blanket off him since I'm feeling cold na rin. I was just motioning to face Daddy when Marky let out a shriek once more, so I have to face him and hug him again. When I did, he smiled and went to sleep. Aba, choosy na bata....

And then, I fell asleep. In the middle of my sleep, I woke up to the feeling of someone licking my lips. Marky was actually sipping my lips, thinking perhaps that it was his pacifier or his milk bottle! Hahaha. But when I told Daddy what Marky did, I said his son kissed me! Hahaha....

Thus said, I have two conclusions:

1.) That Marky views his Daddy as his competition to me (Oedipal complex?); and,
2.) That Marky likes Mommy!

Haha. :D

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Tired.

D'you know the feeling after you've carried three bags full of weights on both arms for the whole day? That is how it feels at the moment. I don't really know why... perhaps it is because I was able to build muscles carrying Baby, doing the laundry, carrying pails full of water, and typing at least five hours a day.

Update about Marky: After a week of breastfeeding him, Daddy's told me to give up. It's no use; he's not getting enough milk, and my nipples were already cracked and bleeding. Add to that the fact that I'm going back to office soon, so it's either I pump or we'd just have him succumb to bottle feeding. We chose the latter, because when I tried to pump, both breasts, the produce won't even exceed 2 ounces. Pity, pity. Oh yeah, breastfeeding is painful, but I do enjoy having Baby in my arms, pressed against my chest... so what I do now, whenever he feeds on the bottle, I make sure I'm hugging him as well....

Speaking about hugs, Marky also seems to be restless during evenings... that is, until his Mommy and Daddy hug him. After that, unless his diaper's soiled or he's hungry, he'll most likely go to sleep... soundly. It's so lovely looking at him sleeping so soundly sandwiched in between the two of us. He looks so secure, so comfortable, so peaceful.......

And yes, he's getting rounder, healthier... his kicks are getting stronger, as well as his cries... he now employs a few means of conversation with us ("uh, uh... eh..."), and we love him even more. =)

Tomorrow, I'm going back to my regular work at the office. It won't take that much time, but I'd sure miss the early morning feedings and diaper changings. And yes, in the afternoons, I'll still be doing web copywriting. So....

Sighs.

But... we need to do it. We need to earn enough for his needs. Today, his diapers have run out, and his milk supply will soon be short, so while I'm struggling to earn online so that we'll have early money by this week, Daddy is looking for ways to get Marky's new supply of diapers and milk. Where is he going to get the money to buy?....

Today, his cousin, Gabriel, is christened. They're asking us when Marky will be. I and Daddy are deciding among two dates: December 9 (coinciding with Daddy's 29th birthday) or July 15 next year (Marky's 1st birthday). Of course, it'll be largely dependent on the funds we have at hand, since both Daddy and I would want Marky's first celebration to be grand.

So, help us God.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

UPDATE: I've Given Birth!

It's already 7:12pm... I'm doing this in a hurry because I miss my little angel at home na, hehehehe....

Yes, you read that right, I've already given birth just this July 15, 2010, at exactly 11:49am, to my son.

He will be carrying the name Mark Reign, and he will be using the surname of his father.

Just this Thursday, we had him registered at the Quezon City Civil Registry. So, it's final. He's a Filipino citizen, and he isn't illegitimate! =)

More on this later 'cause I really wanna go home na. :)

Prayers please.....

We're also open for any material or financial support. =)

Thanks in advance. :)

Thursday, July 8, 2010

La mia famiglia

La mia famiglia

Wala lang. Siyempre, kahit anong kaila ko, aminado akong I already miss my family (I mean, my original family) so much.

So what do I miss about them? The food (most especially), my brothers, their faces. Yes, even Mom and Dad's faces. I just knew my family's a bunch of good looking people (kahit ipagkaila 'yun ni Daddy), and I miss seeing good looking people such as them.

I also miss the books, the Mama Mary image, the WYD memorabilia in my room. Even my pillows, though they're not the softest in the world... I miss them.

I even miss that mad dog (who's yet to be named when I left home), the jeepy (our owner-type jeep), the mango trees in the backyard, as well as that big tank.

I miss the house standing behind the green-blue gate with the number 23 posted on the side.

Don't get me wrong. I'm happy with my current family (composed of Daddy and the Baby soon to say hello to this world). Daddy gives me everything I need, everything I want. But of course....

Sighs.

'Hope things will still get right.....

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Nearing The Homestretch

I'm now on my ninth month... have been on maternity leave since June 30, the day our new president, Noynoy Aquino, is inaugurated. Just had my checkup yesterday, and we (as in me, Daddy, the doctor, and Daddy's family) were all saying the same thing: "Manganak ka na."

I can give birth any time now. But I'm not feeling contractions yet. :o Last week, there were, though... Braxton Hicks contractions, they call them. It feels like the worst dysmenorrhea, the one you experience usually during your first day mens, and... it was scary, because I never imagined it would be this painful (Pano pa kaya 'pag totoong labor pains na?). I'm a weakling when it comes to dysmenorrhea; I was often sent to the clinic because the pain really makes me shiver and go nuts... pa'no pa kaya 'pag totoong labor pains na? :o OMG.

Right now, I've just taken a break from my web writing raket... hindi na rin kasi ako makapag-isip masyado. :) Ayun. This is what I do while waiting for the baby to finally come out.

Ready na 'yung things that we will bring to the lying-in when the time comes. The only things needed are 2 more cloth diapers, an adult diaper (huwaat?), and Sanitex (ilang beses siyang in-explain sa 'min ni Doc, pero personally, di ko pa rin magets kung ano yun). Daddy and I also have to present our cedulas para magawan si Baby ng birth certificate (marriage cert kasi dapat, but since we're not yet married...). Ayun.

Oh, and by the way, I had my first internal exam yesterday, to check if my cervix is already open. :o I was made to remove my clothes from the waist down, lay down on a stretcher and place my feet on "cups" attached on one end, and... there. It was PAINFUL. Pinagalitan pa 'ko nung doctor ("Ay, ang hirap mong i-IE."). Nabigla lang siguro ako. Eh kasi naman, pagkahiga ko, di man lang ako pinahinga... go agad! Huwaaahhh....

So, the diagnosis? (Tama ba?) It's still closed, but it's soft na. Konting talon na lang, butas na! Haha..... :) If by next week, it's still closed, they will give me some drug that's gonna help open my cervix... and then, the following week, pampahilab na, kung hindi pa 'ko makaramdam ng contractions.

Hindi pa rin ako naggagatas. :o I'm kinda worried... when am I supposed to have milk? They say kasi that it's usually 2 weeks before birth.. does that mean I'm a failure? Or made-delay pa ang pagpapanganak ko? Huwaaaahhhh.....

Ayun lang. Musings :)

So, what do I do right now? I carry pails of water. :) I stand up as often as I can. And Daddy suggests that while he's away at work, I can tag along his sister so we could go shopping or window shopping at the flea markets at Phase 1. And when we do that, he says, we can't take the tricycle.. we have to just walk. :) Great. That'll be cool for me. :)

That's it for now.

Prayers, please..... =)

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

... Me's back! :)

Finally... I'm now OFFICIALLY on maternity leave! =) Next week, I'll be nine months on my way to having a baby... so, how am I feeling? A bit scared, 'cause I won't be able to know what exactly to do while Daddy's away (I might labor while he's away), a bit thankful 'cause I can finally rest (imagine working 14 to 15 hours per day!), but a bit sad, too, because I certainly would miss the workload (I think one of the reasons why my pregnancy's gone through without probs is because of the exercise I get from work... I should give it credit, even if it breaks my back and gives me headaches most of the time!).

So... what do I do now? To make sure that the long wait will be bearable and profitable, I'm reliving my online writing biz... my fallback career ever since. =) Thank God I still have two sites to work for... always bursting with work to do! :) 'Hope I can earn enough to help tide us through... especially right now that we have a Baby on the way.....

Meanwhile, I have already almost completed Baby Marky's stuff... out of excitement, washed some of the clothing articles in there... all that's really wanting right now are cloth diapers. :o I still don't have 'em... Daddy says he'll take care of these, but I dunno when... so that's basically the reason why I managed to gather stuff, because I can't wait! =p

And... way to go for my first day on maternity leave! Daddy's sick right now... he's down with the flu, and basically most I did for today is to take care of him. =o I felt kinda awkward because personally, whenever I'm struck with the flu, all I do is cover myself up, sweat, sleep, laugh whenever I feel tickled by the occasional joint pains, and cry whenever I feel depressed because I can't do anything while on bed! :o I'd just sit/stand up whenever I need to get water from the fridge or something to eat. That's all. But Daddy has a lot of requirements... he needs someone to wipe him with a damp towel, and medicines, too. Ah... now I remember. That's what the folks at home used to do when we're young. And I'd better stick them in my mind and stop thinking about what I used to do on my own, because I'm gonna have a child of my own soon, and yeah, I just can't leave him on his own, covered and drenched in sweat while laughing and crying like mad, whenever he's down with the flu.

Sooooo... right now, it's already 9:21pm... I admit, I'm starting to feel a li'l bit hungry, but I need to finish my first article, just so I could jumpstart my fallback career once more. =)

(Somebody's looking behind me. Hehe... it's the Daddy. :))

Kudos! =)

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

It's "Eight" Day Today =)

OK... it's June 9 today, and not June 8... so what's with the title?

Wala lang. =) 8th anniversary kasi namin ngayon ni Daddy. =) And today also marks Baby Marky's 8th month in my tummy!=) Ang likot-likot nga niya kaninang umaga... parang nagpapahiwatig na, "O, Mommy, I'm 8 months na... getting bigger and healthier and more alive and kicking!" Sa tuwa ko, sumagot ako sa kanya ng, "Oh yes, Baby... malapit ka nang lumabas... happy 8th month, Marky!" =)

As for Daddy, well... ang sarap kasi ng tulog ko kaninang madaling araw... sans the fact na ilang beses na palang nagwala 'yung alarm ng cellphones namin. :o But it's not the alarms that woke me up, but three kisses from Daddy... sa lips, sa forehead at sa nose. =) Then, we hugged and he greeted me, "Happy June 9." :p Yikee. :p

Umiyak pa 'ko kaninang umaga kasi I found out na hindi niya 'ko tinabihan buong gabi. He has been celebrating sa living room with his brothers while waiting for me to wake up! Inexplain na lang niya sa 'kin... sa totoo lang daw, natatakot talaga siyang tumabi sa 'kin 'pag natutulog kasi natatakot siyang masipa ang tiyan ko! :o Poor Daddy. Kaya pala ever since mabuntis ako, lagi na lang siyang nagrereklamong bitin ang tulog niya. :o

Kaya lang sobrang importante sa 'kin na palagi siyang makatabi sa pagtulog. :o Ewan ko ba... kasi there are times when I'd feel lonely or insecure, at kapag natatabig ko siya sa kama 'pag gabi, parang napapayapa ang aking kalooban at nase-secure ako. :o Ayun lang....

I hope I can buy my planned gift for him later... although sabi niya sa 'kin kanina, mas pabor siya kung pera na lang ireregalo ko para sa panganganak ko! Nyahaha.... :p

Malapit Na.... =)

Last weekend, I really planned my move na. No matter what happens, I'll start buying stuff na for the baby. :o Binilang-bilang ko na paulit-ulit 'yung money na inipit ko sa aking passbooks... and I vowed to save the meager cash I earn from odd writing jobs I do for a reporter at work para pambili pa ng extra para kay Baby.

I was taking a nap yesterday when this reporter that I write for woke me up, saying, "Marianne... ito nang damit para sa baby mo...."

I was really very thankful! You see, I didn't expect him to be able to give me anything since he has a 7-month-old baby boy at gumastos pa sila ng extra noon for clothes kasi pang-girl ang nabili nila noong clothes... only to find out na boy pala ang baby nila (mali rin minsan ang ultrasound 'pag girl ang resulta... posibleng naipit lang kasi, hehe). And yet, what he gave me is already enough para mailabas ko ang baby ko sa lying-in once maipanganak ko na siya!

To augment that, I bought two 4-oz feeding bottles, a breast pump, and a hat, mittens and booties trio pack. So far, heto na lang ang nakikita kong kailangan pa niya:

* Receiving blankets
* Gauze diapers
* Disposable diapers
* Shorts, pants
* Toiletries, safety pins

Sobra-sobrang salamat, Lord!

Ang galing talaga ng timing mo, kahit kailan!

Meanwhile... nasabi ko na ba??? Palagay ko, hindi pa... sa pinakahuling checkup ko pala, nagpa-ultrasound na ulit ako... and, as the baby's daddy has guessed, ICHABOY! :D Yey! And his name will be Mark Reign... and we'll be calling him Baby Marky! :)

These coming days, habang palapit ng palapit ang aking due, nagpi-print na ako ng stuff at nag-aayos ng papers na kakailanganin sa aking panganganak. These include my birth plan, my OB-Gyne records, my baby's birth certificate info sheet, and all other info sheets. :) This is supposed to save me additional stress and pressure during the labor process since I've read stories about women being asked to answer lots of questions from a nurse sa pagkakataon pa na nagpu-push sila and the last thing they want to hear is stuff na hindi makakatulong! :o Also, I will be preparing our room for welcoming the baby... Mommy and Baby will be sleeping on the mattress, while Daddy will be sleeping on the floor... of course, I have to make sure the mattress is dust-free and the pillows, pillow cases, and blankets that we will use are washed clean. =) Kailangan na ring tanggalin 'yung spider webs sa bubong... kagabi ko lang nakita na meron na, while I was making an inventory of Marky's stuff (iba siguro talaga 'pag Mommy na, lahat nakikita, hehe). And the floor needs to be swept free of dust and dirt and then scrubbed.... Willing akong gawin 'yun lahat, and actually, gusto ko ako ang gagawa, para alam ko na pulido talaga ang paglilinis....

Sa ngayon, ang pinaka-worry talaga namin is finances. We have some money, pero enough lang 'yun kung hindi magkakaaberya ang panganganak ko. :o And the aftermath... medyo we're not sure about it. :o Plano ko, raraket ako, but can I leave my baby behind with other people? Ang rule ko, I don't want to entrust him to a smoker (other than Daddy, pretty please) at sa taong dumihin... kung sana laging available ang kanyang lola, pero siguro, pwede rin akong makigulo sa baby ng Ate ni Daddy....

Ayun lang.

Prayers, please.

Thanks! :)

Monday, June 7, 2010

I So Love My Brown Slippers...

... even if they don't compliment my outfit! :)

You see, most of my outfits are either black-toned or brown-toned.

So, the universal shoe color is black.

But my black slippers look like they've been nibbled by rats already.

Last night, I requested (pretty please!) Daddy to allow me to buy a new pair.

Just because I HATE going to work in my closed shoes (they're fashionable, but not comfy at all when you're pregnant).

I chose one style that cost P179. (Hehe)

There were three colors: black, flesh and brown.

The black one looks a bit trashy (or so I thought, because I was wearing brown that time).

With the flesh one... aargh, it just doesn't work out!

And then, the brown one... I instantly fell in love with it.

So what if it looks kinda rugged or... something?

I... LOVED... IT.

Period.

:D

By the way, it's our 8th anniversary tomorrow. :) Still wondering what to give Daddy on our birthday. I've read that most guys basically want TIME OUT, as in out, to celebrate. But we just couldn't afford it at the moment. :o

Right now, what I'm really planning to give him is a set of briefs, hehe. :) You see, I know he used to have lots, but when we started living together, I found that he uses only three, plus three other boxers. :) And, ya know what? Hehe... I really think he looks so sexy in black briefs. Hehehe... it's my secret fetish... Daddy's image in his black briefs... so, well, maybe I could find him a set. :) I still have P200 left out of my baby-shopping spree... maybe I could buy something decent for him out of it. :)

For my anniversary message, here's all I have to say:

Our 8th anniversary is resplendent of the symbol of infinity, brought about by the presence of this little darling angel in my womb. You know I have always loved you and will always love you for you are basically everything to me. I hope we'll be together forever.....

Indeed, people who are meant to be together always find their way at the end. =)

Good Lord, bless us.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Prayer to Take Authority

Very powerful prayer. :) I literally feel Jesus taking over me whenever I recite this. Naalala ko lang bigla when somebody asked me for a copy. I used to memorize this. At least, naka-post na ito dito ngayon. :)



In the name of Jesus, I take authority and I bind all forces in the air, in the ground,
in the water, in the underground, in the netherworld, in nature and in fire.
You are the Lord over the entire universe and I give You the glory for Your creation.

In Your name, I bind all demonic forces that have
come against us and our families and I seal all of us in the
protection of your precious blood that was shed for us on the cross.

Mary our mother, we seek Your protection and intercession with the Sacred
Heart of Jesus for us and our families, and surround us with Your mantle of love to discourage the enemy.

St. Michael and our guardian angels come defend us and our families in battle against all the evil ones that roam the earth.

In the name of Jesus I bind and command all powers and forces of evil to depart right away from us our homes and our lands.

And we thank the Lord Jesus for You are a faithful and compassionate God.

AMEN

Monday, May 24, 2010

I Miss Singing :o

Calling Johnny, Miyo, Kuya Gen, Jear, Romer... basta lahat ng mga katsokaran sa Music Min! Pagka-panganak ko, mag-concert naman tayo... kahit tayo-tayo lang! :)

I miss singing for the Lord. Huhu.... :(

Hanap-hanap na ng chords! Hehe....


LYRICS FROM: Bukas Palad online :)


Pastorale

First heard and learned about this sa choir. =) It's so quiet, and it makes me feel super peaceful. =)

I am your reed, sweet shepherd, glad to be
Now if you will, breathe out your joy in me
And make bright songs or fill me
With the soft moan of your love
When your delight has failed
To call or move your flock from wrong

Make children songs or any song to fill
Your reed with breath of life
But at your will
Lay down the flute and take repose
While music infinite
Is silence in our heart
And laid on it you reed is mute


God Of Silence

Lagi ko naman 'tong naririnig na filler sa early morning stint ko sa NBN. =) Also very touching. =) 'Pag naririnig ko 'to, parang hindi talaga ako nag-iisa. =)


The God of silence beckons me
To journey to my heart
Where He awaits
O Lord, I hear You calling tenderly
To You I come to gaze
At the beauty of Your face I cannot see

To rest in Your embrace I cannot feel
To dwell in Your love hurting but sweet
To be with You; to glimpse eternity

God of night, fount of all my delight.
Show Your light . . . that my heart, like Yours, burn bright.

Be still the torment of the night
Will not encumber you, if you believe
My child this darkness isn't emptiness
For here I mold your heart
Unto My image painfully you long to see

The self you yearn to be, but fear to know
The world from which you flee in Me find home
All these I give you, if you remain in Me

COUNTERPOINT:
I am ever here
My child, you need not fear
The dark will set you free
And bring your heart to Me

CODA:
The God of silence beckons me
To journey to my heart
Where He awaits me.



Your Heart Today

Una ko rin itong narinig at natutunan sa choir. =) Sabi nila, unang sinulat ang kantang ito sa panahon ng gyera. Sikat 'yung personalidad na sumulat pero nakalimutan ko na kung sino. =) Pero I love its message. I'm sure you'll love it, too. =)

Where there is fear I can allay
Where there is pain I can heal
Where there are wounds I can bind
And hunger I can fill

REFRAIN:
Lord, grant me courage
Lord, grant me strength
Grant me compassion
That I may be Your heart today

Where there is hate I can confront
Where there are yokes I can release
Where there are captives I can free
And anger I can appease (REFRAIN)

BRIDGE:
When comes the day I dread
To see our broken world
Compel me from my cell grown cold
That Your people I may behold

Where there is fear I can allay
Where there is pain I can heal
Where there are wounds I can bind
And hunger I can fill (REFRAIN)

CODA:
And when I've done all that I could
Yet there are hearts I cannot move
Lord, give me hope
That I may be Your heart today



Awit ng Paghahangad

So lambing. =) Always brings tears to my eyes tuwing kinakanta ko 'to. =)

O Diyos, Ikaw ang laging hanap
Loob ko'y Ikaw ang tanging hangad
Nauuhaw akong parang tigang na lupa
Sa tubig ng 'Yong pag-aaruga

Ika'y pagmamasdan sa dakong banal
Nang makita ko ang 'Yong pagkarangal
Dadalangin akong nakataas aking kamay
Magagalak na aawit ng papuring iaalay

KORO:
Gunita ko'y Ikaw habang nahihimlay
Pagkat ang tulong Mo sa tuwina'y taglay
Sa lilim ng Iyong mga pakpak
Umaawit akong buong galak

Aking kaluluwa'y kumakapit sa 'Yo
Kaligtasa'y tiyak kung hawak Mo ako
Magdiriwang ang hari, ang Diyos, S'yang dahilan
Ang sa Iyo ay nangako, galak yaong makamtan (KORO)

CODA:
Umaawit, umaawit
Umaawit akong buong galak



Breath of God

Nakaka-rejuvenate. =) Pang-taize. Hehe. =)

Breathe on me, Breath of God
Fill me with life anew
That I may love the things You love
And do what You would do
Breathe on me, Breath of God

Breathe on me, Breath of God
'Til my heart is pure
Until with You, I have one will
To live and to endure
Breathe on me, Breath of God

Breathe on me, Breath of God
My soul with grace refine
Until this earthly part of me
Glows with Your fire divine

Breathe on me, Breath of God
So I shall never die
But live with You the perfect life
In Your eternity
Breathe on me, Breath of God



In My Heart

Parang nasa Bible 'tong mismong lyrics nito. And it's very confident. I love it. =)

REFRAIN:
In my heart I know my Savior lives
I can hear Him calling tenderly my name
Over sin and death He has prevailed
In His glory, in His new life we partake

I know He lives as He has promised
For me He's risen that from fear I may be free
Not even death can separate me
From Him whose love and might remain in me (REFRAIN)

For I have seen and touched Him risen
To all the world will I proclaim His majesty
With joy I sing to tell His story
That in our hearts may live His memory (REFRAIN)

And all the earth shall bow before Him
His blessed name all will adore on bended knee
His truth shall reign, so shall His justice
In Christ, my Savior, let all glory be (REFRAIN)

CODA:
In my heart I know my Savior lives
In His glory, in His new life we partake



In Him Alone

Ito rin, parang napaka-confident ng nagsulat nito sa promise ni Lord. =) Ang sarap dalhin sa battlefield. =) hehe.

REFRAIN:
In Him alone is our hope
In Him alone is our strength
In Him alone are we justified
In Him alone are we saved

What have we to offer
That does not fade or wither
Can the world ever satisfy
The emptiness in our hearts
In vain we deny (REFRAIN)

When will you cease running
In search of hollow meaning
Let His love feed the hunger
In your soul till it overflows
With joy you yearn to know (REFRAIN)

DESCANT:
In Him alone is our hope
Unto Him I pour out my heart
He alone will save me
With His love and mercy.



Huwag Kang Mangamba

Hindi ka talaga mangangamba if you keep in mind the message of this song. =)


KORO:
Huwag kang mangamba, 'di ka nag-iisa
Sasamahan kita, saan man magpunta
Ika'y mahalaga sa 'King mga mata
Minamahal kita, minamahal kita

Tinawag kita sa 'yong pangalan
Ikaw ay Akin magpakailanman
Ako ang Panginoon mo at Diyos
Tapagligtas mo at Tagatubos (KORO)

Sa tubig kita'y sasagipin
Sa apoy ililigtas man din
Ako ang Panginoon mo at Diyos
Tapagligtas mo at Tagatubos (KORO)



Prayer Of Rupert Mayer

First learned about this from Kuya Gen. =) Memorable ito kasi on the spot lang itong tinuro sa 'kin sa recon. Since then, I've loved it, because of the message of surrender. =)

Lord, what You will let it be so
Where You will there we will go
What is Your will help us to know

Lord, when You will the time is right
In You there's joy in strife
For Your will I'll give my life

To ease Your burden brings no pain
To forego all for You is gain
As long as I in You remain

REFRAIN:
Because You will it, it is best
Because You will it, we are blest
Till in Your hands our hearts find rest
Till in Your hands our hearts find rest



Stella Maris

Lagi ko 'tong naririnig, pero natutunan ko lang talaga itong kantahin sa Teatro. =) Reminds me, too, of Iskra days. Haaaayyyy... kakamiss!

Kung itong aming paglalayag
Inabot ng pagkabagabag
Nawa'y mabanaagan ka
Hinirang na tala ng umaga

Kahit alon man ng pangamba
Di alintana sapagkat naro'n ka
Ni unos ng pighati
At kadiliman ng gabi

KORO:
Maria sa puso ninuman
Ika'y tala ng kalangitan
Ningning mo ay walang pagmamaliw
Inang sinta, Inang ginigiliw

Tanglawan kami aming ina
Sa kalangitan naming pita
Nawa'y maging hantungang
Pinakamimithing kaharian (KORO)


KANTAHAN NA! :D