Saturday, April 17, 2010

Crying Jags... Yet Again

Last week, this was the picture:

"How can I ever replace you with anybody else?....

You already know all my colors....

You are now intimately familiar with all my angles....

And you know me on all points.

I love you....."

It was a super awwww moment.

But now, he's mad at me....

And I dunno WHY.

I was trying to recall what happened yesterday....

He arrived in the office.

He was in a good mood... and he looked good in his grey-black polo, black pants and leather shoes.

He just took his teacher's exam from the Division Office.

This was the only requirement he needs to fulfill to be able to secure a schedule from whichever school he will be assigned to teach at.

We were working....

He said he'll go home with me, aboard the company shuttle, earlier than his usual logout.

I surmise, maybe he's tired.

So, when I was done working, I waited for him.

But he isn't giving me a damn anymore.

And he asked me why I was standing there beside him.

I said I was waiting for him.

But he said he won't go home with me, 'cause he doesn't want to go home with me.

So I went home, puzzled.

He went home early... but he's not looking at me or even talking to me.

I was waiting....

But he didn't budge.

So, I just prepared his dinner, and he ate it without giving the slightest reaction.

Then, he went out for three hours of computer gaming.....

As usual, I waited for him to kiss me....

But he didn't... he just pushed me aside, and it hurt, so I cried.

I don't know what's up.

And I don't wanna ask... 'cause I know he won't answer.

And there's lots goin' on inside me right now... the baby's now causing my tummy to literally wave... so that's really what I fuss about all the time right now.

What did I do?

But he lay beside me in bed last night.

He allowed me to hug him, and he hugged me, too.

But when we woke up, it was all the same cold stance again.

Sighsssss..........


No comments: